I am ready to be honest and real.

As I continue my journey down this road of maintaining a healthy lifestyle, keeping off the weight I have lost, and being in the best shape I can be in, I have got to be honest. Sometimes it is down right HARD to keep this going. You know, sometimes in my head I just think, "What if I just ate what I wanted for a week, didn't work out, got just a little sleep; how would I feel?" If I am being honest with myself and all of you out there that are reading this I wont deny that this is something that crosses my mind when things get to be too busy for me in my life, or I am being stubborn and just don't want to admit to the truths of what I know is the right thing for me to do in life. So when I do think about this statement above, I realize usually what happens is if I gave into that statement and let myself "test drive" the idea it would not work out so well. 

 First off, if and when I have ever tried to stream away from my normal routine I am met with the huge feeling of guilt. Yep, that's right I pretty much get stressed out to the point where I can't handle even putting something else that I know isn't good for me in my body. But yet at times I am still doing it, and not even processing what I am putting into my body. So right there for myself, I know what triggers my bad eating. habits. Stress and emotions are the top factors on my list. Along with sleep being another factor I just know that if none of these things are in balance it all seems to go out the window for that day, week, month. But this is my "a-ha" moment. How about I keep all these things in balance? How about letting the stress in my life roll off of me, and realize that everything will be alright. Keep my emotions in check. If I feel like they are getting out of control, or if I am bottling things in talk to someone who can understand you (i.e. my fiance Ben, friends, etc.) journal about it, meditate, do some yoga. Whatever it takes! And for the love of all that's good GET SLEEP. I know I will feel better if all these things happen.

My goal in the next few weeks, month and years is to truly be honest with myself. I have stated this before, and I will state it again. I AM NOT PERFECT. I just feel like people at times see only what they see on the outside and never can truly comprehend what is going on in my mind, body, etc. I don't think anyone truly at any point can realize that at times I struggle to be this new person who I have become. I need to love me for who I am, yet all these things have made me realize something else, yet time and time again I realize all these things above have made me hit another conclusion for myself. 

STOP CARING WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT YOU.

I am doing me, and I am at my best! I have got to remain positive through all these challenges, but again it's not always easy and it is downright hard sometimes! So there you go. I am being real with you all. Loving me for me is starting today and I am ready to bring it!