Bod Pod test, Argh.

So this morning at 5 o'clock in the early freaking morning, I took my first bod pod test. To be honest, I already knew by the way my body, emotions and mind have felt in the last few weeks that I was going to see that there was some work that was going to be done after I tested today. Although I had lost 2 pounds since weighing myself last week I am realizing that there is one most important thing that I have to look at. I have to get my eating and living with a paleo lifestyle down. No more making excuses. As I sat there looking at my results I have realized that all the stress and anxiety of putting things into my body like I have in the past few months is just one of the reasons I have gained weight.


I also took "before" pictures the other night. Yup just me in my sports bra and undies. Can't say I love taking pictures of myself that way but I have to say that it is one thing I wish I would have done for myself before I lost all the weight I have in the past few years. Of course, I have plenty of pictures of myself in clothing, and on vacations, etc. but actually seeing myself stripped down, and real is something I feel anyone doing weight loss should do. Of course the negative side of me wanting to first point out the imperfections, but then I turned it around when I found myself doing it and looked into what things I saw that were positive. First off, holy cow quads and calfs, they are like on their own planet! I can also really start to tell (once I slim down even more as well) that the sides of my stomach/side ab areas are getting defined and cut! And of course my flippin' traps are on another level. That's what I get for some heavy lifting I have been diving into lately. But you know what? This is who I am. I am excepting my body for what it is and going forward with it.

  This test today proved to myself what I already knew. I know what needs to be done in the next 6 weeks and beyond. I know I can challenge myself  physically, but I also need to challenge myself on working on myself and what goes into my mouth and body on a daily basis. I am stubborn; I know this because I have for quite some time been denying and convincing myself that I could just "workout" the food that I knew wasn't good for me that I was eating. Sure, I love food, but I have to fill my body with food that fuels me, and doesn't bring me down. Do I feel a little defeated after getting into that bod pod this morning? Yes. But do I know I can totally turn myself around and make this into a positive for moving forward and not looking back? You bet I can.

 Also, I have to mention an "accomplishment" or "PR" for myself this week. We have been working on squats a lot lately at the gym, and on my back squat last night I am up to 145 lbs.! Pretty cool, and I really couldn't have done it without Rob pushing me to "suck it up" and not care about what anyone else was doing and focus on myself. Even though I have gained weight in the past few months I feel my strength and endurance have become so much more powerful in the past 11 months. It is really amazing to think about.


 I am excited to say that as of May 15th, I will have been at Sweat360 for a year. It is going to be fun during that time because I have just realized I will be finishing up my Meltdown Challenge during that week! I truly have loved every minute of being at this gym. No one, or no other gym has helped me, pushed me harder, and helped me focus like all my family at Sweat has. Here's to shrinking down in the next few weeks and learning how to love me!