As many of you know I have had an amazing life so far, an amazing time of goalS accomplished, Pr's crushed, and a huge achievement with my weight loss over the last few years. In 2010 I graduated from college and was down 100+ lbs. It was great, I ran Hood to Coast 3 years in a row, have done numerous 5ks, half marathons, relay races and participated in numerous activities that I never thought I could do! Well here I am now in 2015 and somewhere along the line in the last few years things shifted. Maybe it was my busy work schedule, the changing of jobs, relationships, and even losing some of these things but slowly the weight crept back up. I tried to tell myself "It's fine, just go run some more, lift heavier, more more more and you'll be fine.." But unfortunately it has caught up with me again and I am admitting fully that my life needs to change.
So here I am fully accepting that I am not perfect, nor will I ever be perfect but I have decided that I will no longer hide or shy away from what needs to happen and change in order for me to be happy with myself and also happy with everything in my life. I know I am enough but I need to work through this again and believe in myself once more.
I love my husband, I have an amazing extended family now who I love more than anything and incredibly amazing friends who are so very supportive of me and are in my life. It's just time for me to open up and not shy away from my fears any longer. The things that I have experienced in these past few years have been things that I will never forget. I also have decided that I am no longer going to live in the past, or dwell on any mistakes, misjudgments or missteps that I have made. I am ready to claim back my life because I now have a husband and a life that I want to live and be around for a very very long time! He also has jumped on board with me as well to kick ass into 2015. We have cleaned out the crud with our habits and decided to start anew. We are a team and we know that both of us will have success if each one of us is on board 100% and ready to do things not for just ourselves but to support each other!
Here I am being completely raw and open. I am ready.
2015 is going to be a year of change for me and I can't wait! I have always kept in touch with my amazing former trainer Lara and when I found out that she was starting her own business with training and coaching and was putting out a 2015 scholarship to start with her new programs deep down I knew I needed this. Of course all the questions popped in my head like "Can I do this?", "Am I strong enough?" or "What if I fail?". But once I poured my heart out in an email to her I knew it was time. I was ready.
To my delight I got accepted for the 2015 scholarship!
I will be working with her on a weekly basis along with still showing up and being present with all my amazing and wonderful family at Sweat360. I am not sure where this all will take me but I am so excited for not only change in my weight, but also developing a stronger, deep down awareness of myself. It's so time for it and I am so ready!
Another resolution I have decided to do is really get back into writing my thoughts down and re-launching this blog. This is where I feel I can share my thoughts and be real. So for all of you that have been avid readers of my updates over the past few years in my journey get ready! There will be lots of updates, blog posts and achievements to be had!
Thank you all for being in my life and for always accepting me for who I am.
2015 IS ON AND I'M SOOOO READY!
