Tomorrow is another big day!

It is crazy for me to think that I have been on this path and journey of a healthy lifestyle change for over a year now. Some of you know also that lately I have been battling the last ten pounds, and then 5 pounds and now I am literally down to battling ONE POUND. I can not tell you all the mental/emotional stuff I have been going through! On one hand, I know I am so close but then at times I begin to question if I really CAN LOSE 100 lbs. I guess it might just be myself playing mind games and maybe a little bit of going back to the old mind set, or the way I used to be before. I can tell you one thing, I DO NOT want to go back to who I used to be before. Yes, I was happy and I am still the same person that I was over a year ago, but going back to a person who is not motivated, and not physically active? I can't even imagine doing that over again. It's hard to admit but sometimes I really am scared, afraid of the "what-ifs". What if I lose my hundred pounds and then I gain some back? What will I do?

As all of these questions go through my head, I have to stop for a second and realize that there do not need to be these "what-if" questions in my mind. For one, I have gotten this far and I just have to tell myself that there is no turning back. I love the way I feel and I love the great achievements that have followed and shown up for me through this journey. Should I worry about gaining the weight back? Maybe, but for me I have the tools now to use that if it were to happen I could get back and fast!

All of you have been amazing through out this process. Thank you to each and everyone of you that has left me messages, or people who I have talked to that I haven't seen over the years. And of course, I couldn't have done any of this without the support of my close friends and family. All of everyone's positive attitude about my lifestyle change has only wanted me to push harder and strive for my ultimate goal.

So tomorrow morning I weigh in again. Whether I reach my goal or not tomorrow, I have in my mind and am telling myself repeatedly that I have made it this far, there is NO turning back. I can do this!

Amazing day with an amazing goal that has been MET!!

Hey all,
It again has been a while since I have posted anything on here, but I have been busy, busy, busy with workout and staying on track with my goal! This morning I went and did my training session with my awesome trainer, Lara and also got some GREAT NEWS! As of today, October 1st, 2010 I have lost....





99 LBS.!!!!!!!!!




I CAN NOT believe that I have done this! Let me tell you, stepping on the scale each week is not always easy for me but when I have big numbers like this (5 lbs. dropped this week, which is huge for me!) it is a really great feeling. Stepping back and looking at where I was at this time a year ago, it is incredible and so gratifying to see what I've done. The old me who was the "pretty-faced" girl, is now a rocking diva with some muscle to prove! This new me can run, jump, and push herself to an extreme she could have never done before. When I weighed in this morning, it was SO great to just scream and celebrate! (Yea, my trainer and I screaming at 8 in the morning in the gym...it was funny!) I'm so proud of myself and the choices that I have made, and the steps and routines that I am making for myself and for my future. This has been a long process, one that hasn't been easy always and there have been ups and downs too! But knowing that I got myself here and with all the amazing support of friends and family, that is something I am so blessed to have, and so proud of.

So, What now??

Now, I am for SURE going to get to my goal of 100 lbs. lost in another week or two! I am also going to be doing a 5k at the end of the month, (Possibly Run Like Hell 5k or something else) and then doing a 10k most likely in November or December! Once I hit this 100 lb. goal it's time for me to shed some old clothes in my closet, get some new ones and change my look a little bit! If any of you have any ideas on what I should do, let me know:)




Love you all, and thank you again for reading this and your continuing support for me through my journey!!!




♥Emily